by the Revd Dr Charlie Bell, Fellow at Girton College Cambridge, Assistant Curate, St John the Divine, Kennington and a consultant to the LLF Implementation Pastoral Guidance Working Group

There is a moment each morning, as most of the world slumbers, and the deep night seems to be all pervasive, that a tiny, almost imperceptible dot of light can be just about glimpsed on the horizon. Slowly, but surely, the hints of dawn make their presence known – gently, yet increasingly convincingly, until the light warms, and the day begins. And there is no going back.
There will, surely, be much noise made about what happened at the General Synod this week – much both-sideism, much hand-wringing about the narrowness of the vote, many angry words spat with venom and fury. Yet despite all the noise, all the anger, all the foaming at the mouth – indeed, despite many frustrations from many of us about the ever-so-limited step forward that these blessings are – something has happened. That something is tiny, almost imperceptible, yet it is there on the horizon, and it heralds a new dawn that cannot, however many tricks are played, however many legal actions taken, be turned back. Something has changed – the ceiling has a crack in it, and grace is seeping through. God is on the move, and is calling us all to follow.
For those of us who are LGBTQIA, observing the debate this week was a bruising experience – more so even than February’s sessions – with language and behaviour that was so far over the queerphobic line as to be utterly unacceptable in any other forum except the one we claim is dedicated to the Lord of love. A particular low point was the use of the phrase ‘target on the back’ of clergy not wanting to use the prayers – not only is it a completely ludicrous, fearmongering, and demonstrably false suggestion that such clergy will be at risk of legal challenge, it is a deeply distasteful thing to make light of such imagery in a world where LGBTQIA people genuinely face violence and hate, not least in parts of the Anglican Communion. Twenty years ago Gene Robinson was ordained bishop whilst wearing a bullet-proof vest, because he really did have a target on his back – loose language like this is well below the dignity of a bishop and should have no place in the silly games of Synod. Let’s be absolutely clear: you don’t get spat at in the street, or stabbed to death, for being a conservative evangelical – and the attempts to invert the reality of victimhood from so many in the Synod chamber was disgusting.
Of course, there was ultimately no need for this week’s session to take place – the reality being that whether the motion had passed or not, the prayers would likely have been commended and the Pastoral Guidance brought forward. In choosing to bring this motion to Synod – however asinine its content – the bishops made yet another in a series of unforced errors, and allowed the February debate to be rehashed in an even nastier way than before. Listening to speech after speech, it became clear that very few of our opponents had anything to say about the amendments they spoke to, but instead wanted merely to do down the lives and loves of, and yet again ‘other’, LGBTQIA people. What they wanted to do was revoke even the moderate progress of February – and with it, the apology to LGBTQIA people for the way we’ve been treated.
For whatever one’s theological perspective, this was surely not a debate that made the church proud, and yet despite the endless provocations and bad-faith acting, those arguing for these tiny steps forward showed grace in abundance. Those of us watching on could see love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control bursting forth again and again. Judged by its fruits, there was no narrow majority in the debate’s outcome. Similarly, it is clear that the offensive and theologically abysmal accompanying paper GS2328 did not and does not reflect the mind of even the House of Bishops, let alone the General Synod, and can be immediately consigned to history as a vain attempt at influencing debate by those who have no business to do so.
So where, in practical terms, do we find ourselves. Firstly, we know that the prayers will be commended within the next month or so – about time, and at last. The vicious conservative responses to Wednesday’s motion passing have managed to suggest that both nothing is happening, nothing has changed, and that the change is a great catastrophe, enough to wipe the Church of England off the map. Given the logical impossibility of this faux-outrage, it is probably best just to ignore them altogether – a great boon to one’s mental wellbeing.
Secondly, we expect that the standalone services of blessing – the only real change in official practice here – will be authorised for use for an experimental period. There is absolutely no reason for this to be delayed beyond silly legal games, so this authorisation should happen as soon as possible, and we should get some clarity straight away as to when this will be. This authorisation means that we can finally offer people a wedding-blessing-that-we-must-explicitly-make-clear-is-not-a-wedding-blessing, an idea so lacking in pastoral compassion that it surely cannot be taken seriously. What it means in practice is that we can finally offer people a service to celebrate their love, which seems rather uncontroversial to me. It’s a step in the right direction, so let’s embrace that direction in its fullness.
Of course, there were speeches made at the General Synod which delighted in the idea that these standalone services might be removed in two years once the two-thirds authorisation of Synod fails, which it doubtless will. This gave, perhaps, a rather good glimpse into the utterly uncompromising and pastorally uninterested perspective of those who see their life’s mission as being the opposition of same-sex intimacy in the name of the Jesus who never utters a word about it. In the main, the bishops speaking recognised how pastorally inept this was, and I agree wholeheartedly with the Bishop of Chichester that once these services are introduced experimentally it would be a pastoral catastrophe to remove them – I cannot see this ever happening, and if it did, then we should simply disobey.
So where do we go from here? Well in the first instance we must hold the bishops to account and get the commendation and authorisation undertaken without delay. We must, too, throw the pernicious Issues in Human Sexuality in the bin and get the Pastoral Guidance released before the end of the year, if at all possible – it is now a matter of simple cruelty and pastoral ineptitude that it is not published and put in place, and it is high time that clergy and ordinands in same-sex marriages should be freed to live out their God-given vocations. It is totally absurd that we will be able to bless forms of relationship yet not enter into them, and I cannot see that Issues is in place in anything more than name since Wednesday’s vote. Good riddance to bad – dangerous – rubbish.
Secondly, let’s be clear that this is not the end – it is a stepping stone, and there is certainly no going back, but it is most definitely not the end either, and there is much careful and coordinated work to do. Marriage will be opened to people of the same sex, and it is now a question of when and not if. The development of our doctrine, and our reception of this, is inherently part of the way our church does its theology and lives its life, and is not in opposition to it. Our opponents have made it clear that they will not even grant us scraps, pay any attention to simple pastoral need, or allow us to live within our conscience, however much we wish to let them live within theirs. It is time for us – and particularly our bishops – to recognise that, to stop making excuses for them, and to stand firm against their threats and demands for (and attempts at) schism. They will stop at nothing to snatch everything away from us, and we need our bishops to stand alongside us, just as Bishop Sarah did in her summing up. Bishop Sarah, you will always be welcome at our table – not least because it’s not ours, but the Lord’s, and all of us come at God’s invitation. We do not write the guest list – we come as fellow pilgrims.
And that’s the final thing that we must now work for. For far too long, bishops and LGBTQIA people have been at loggerheads with one another, each, perhaps, feeling in an impossible and difficult position. Finally, and not before time, some – even a majority – of our bishops have had the courage to draw a line in the sand and to say that yes, we, too, are part of the holy and broken body of Christ, in the same way as anyone else, and ‘being in communion’ is never something that should be weaponised. Yes, it has taken far too long. Yes, it is sometimes far too lukewarm. Yes, we will need to encourage them time and again. But the dam has broken and the secret is out – the bishops are with us. Let us never cease to remind them of this simple fact and learn to rebuild the trust that has all-too-often been lost.
So now let us turn our minds to hope. The light is rising, and so – creakingly, tentatively, in the face of anger and opposition and flailing frustration – the dawn from on high is breaking upon us. Someday, our church will be led into the way of peace and find that its unity is a gift given, and not an idol created. And until then, let us see the water flowing from the right side of the Temple, however much others might deny it or try to stop it, and watch it making abundant life spring forth wherever it goes. All those to whom this water comes are saved and will say ‘Alleluia’, as the ancient hymn goes. That surely is our song, too.