Swimming in the Deep End

by Mother Arwen Ffolkes, Vicar of Eastbourne and member of General Synod

Many years ago, during my discernment process, a conversation turned to the breadth of the Anglican tradition. Someone older and wiser than me remarked, “It is the shallow waters of the pool that always make the most noise.” I have never forgotten those words. Their truth is being borne out in our current time, when some of the loudest voices in our Church seem content to splash about in the shallows. There, amid the noise, hermeneutics, homiletics, and theology are too often reduced to something distressingly thin.

I fear for some of my campaigning conservative evangelical brothers and sisters. I fear they have lost sight of the deep end and forgotten the joy of learning to swim freely in the vast and generous sea of God. Instead, they insist that those who venture into deeper waters have lost their way, and try to drag us back to the shallows, where the doggy paddle of literalism is the only stroke permitted.

At General Synod, I often find myself asking: How small is your God? It is a question born not of anger but of grief. I have heard modernisms dressed up as tradition, literal moralism mistaken for orthodoxy, and in all of it, an astonishing blindness to the rotten fruit such distortions bear. Few of the early Christians would have recognised this way of practising the faith. To hang the whole of salvation on the nature of human relationships is perilously close to heresy. How small must one’s God be to imagine that human love could threaten divine holiness or undo redemption? It is not only incredible but tragic.

I sometimes watch, with sadness, as the self-appointed defenders of God stand firm in their certainties, as if the Almighty needed protection from His own creation. In truth, they have lost their way – not because they are faithless, but because they have mistaken control for conviction and noise for depth.

Increasingly, I find myself welcoming post-evangelicals who have outgrown the shallows. Life, in all its mess and mercy, has made the pool too small to hold their humanity. Instead of being cast out, they have swum upward and outward – to the deep end – where mystery and unknowing, silence and sacrament, become gifts rather than threats. There, they discover the God who truly walked among us: the One who meets us not in fear but in freedom, not in certainty but in communion.

The beauty of Anglican faith lies in the holistic dance of Scripture, tradition, and reason – each speaking to experience with grace, charity, and love. It is not shallow. It is not new. It is the deep, living current of the early Church, flowing still, calling us to swim further in.

 

 

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10 responses to “Swimming in the Deep End”

  1. grahammcotter avatar
    grahammcotter

    Dear Mother Arwen, Thank you for your writing. Eastbourne must be a beautiful place to live, and minister.

    I wonder whether I can give you a different perspective, by quoting from a letter that I recently wrote:

    Although this may seem presumptuous, I wonder whether I can ask you to review your own support for gender neutral blessing, and gender neutral marriage. The heavenly bridegroom, the Lord Jesus, is betrothing to himself his bride, the church, in readiness for that great day at his return, the marriage supper of the Lamb. This marriage banquet, as you know, will see so many in attendance from across the centuries, that it will be impossible to count the number of the guests. (I sometimes wonder who will be sitting next to us on that triumphant occasion. Hopefully precious martyrs from Nigeria, Somalia, Eritrea, North Korea, or Afghanistan. Language barriers will have broken apart, conversation, tears and joy will flow, and love will abound).

    The heavenly bridegroom and bride are the paradigm for marriage, underscoring the complementarity of marriage, male and female, a creation ordinance given by the living Lord for the good of all peoples and all cultures from the dawn of time. It would be so good if you could be a prophetic voice, alongside Jill Duff, Ric Thorpe, Paul Williams and Andrew Watson, preserving precious truths regarding marriage, gender and sexuality within the Church of England. As you will realise, Canada, America, Scotland and Wales are all in freefall, having abandoned the Maker’s design. The Lord Jesus is progressively withdrawing his lampstand from churches which no longer align with his beautiful herbaceous borders, as we read in the early chapters of Revelation.

    Film Number 5 in LLF, by the way, came from our parish of Buckland Monachorum, and is a narrative of transformative change, in line with 1 Corinthians 6, – ‘and such were some of you’.

    Mark chapter 7 delineates the thirteen heart behaviours, described by the Lord Jesus, which pollute the human heart, and render the necessity of a heart change, the miracle of new birth. ‘Porneiai’, – immoralities, and ‘aselgeia’, – lewdness, are both words that encompass unnatural sexual relationships. However, I am even more concerned about other words used by Jesus, – greed, arrogance, envy, deceit. Coming from a reformed charismatic background, it is a heart grief to see entitlement, abuse, and pride besmirching evangelical and charismatic leadership.

    I sometimes wonder whether it would be salutary to call the whole of General Synod out on to the Westminster streets for open-air worship, preaching and the offering of prayer in the public square. Possibly, in no time at all, the whole of Synod would be on its knees, repenting, and crying out to God to know more of his presence and power in offering to the nation the unsearchable riches of Christ.

    Beyond all these matters, for me, lies a longing for a fresh Christian awakening in the land, with thousands pressing in to the kingdom of God, and cultural decline being reversed. Across 34 years in our parish of Buckland Monachorum we tasted a harbinger of this at different times, – special times of the Holy Spirit’s transforming presence, – without ever seeing its full fulfilment.

    The compromises with LLF renders the above less likely, and a receding prospect. The holiness and purity of the one true and living triune God is being tarnished, and the call to conversion and a new trajectory of life is also being weakened.

    Praying very much that you may reconsider your approaches, not least for those who battle with same sex temptations, but who are determined to remain faithful to the Lord Jesus. I pray regularly with a younger member of the clergy in this position.

    With kind regards,

    Graham Cotter.

    Mother Arwen, thank you again, but I do not believe the above is to be walking in the shallows.

    1. David Runcorn avatar

      Graham. I for one am confident Mthr Arwen has given all this a great deal of thought – and has still come to a very different conclusion. For myself I am thoroughly distracted by trying to imagine God’s ‘beautiful herbaceous borders’. But then this theological discussion has a great deal to do with how we manage biblical imagery and metaphors.

    2. Tim Chesterton avatar
      Tim Chesterton

      ‘Canada, America, Scotland and Wales are all in freefall, having abandoned the Maker’s design’.

      The implication of this comment is that the reason the Anglocan churches in these countries are in freefall is because we have approved same-sex marriage. I have the following comments (as a Canadian).

      First of all, average attendance decline in the Anglican Church of Canada over the past six years is approximately 6% per year. Average attendance decline in the C of E over the past four years is approximately 6% per year. The C of E does not allow same-sex marriage. 19 0ut of 30 Canadian dioceses do. But the attendance decline is the same.

      Secondly, attendance was declining in England, Scotland, Wales, the USA and Canada before same-sex marriage was approved.

      Third, let’s be accurate here. The Anglican Church of Canada, as a national body, has not approved same-sex marriage (the motion fell one vote short of a 2/3 majority in the House of Bishops, despite the fact that 80% of total synod membership voted in favour of it). But having discussed this for so many years (and also recognising the inequality in diocesan representation in the House of Bishops), many Canadian dioceses have mad the decision to move ahead with it anyway. Currently, 19 out of 30 of our dioceses allow same-sex marriage. If, as you imply, our decline is caused by our approval of same-sex marriage, then attendance should be in freefall in the 19 approving dioceses, but the other 11 should be doing well. Is that the case? Can you point to the statistics that prove it? I wait for your response.

      In fact (as I said on Thinking Anglicans), the problem is not that we have lost the plot, but that the plot has changed, and we have not been good at adapting to it. Our churches are rooted in Christendom, but Christendom is dead and gone. In Christendom, everyone in society was assumed to be a church member, and their need was not evangelisation but pastoral care. We now find ourselves in a totally secular environment in which the primary call of the church is mission and disciple-making. But we Canadian Anglicans are largely uncomfortable with this (we haven’t even been successful in doing it with our children, which is the main reason—along with the deaths of our older members—for our attendance nosedive). Some of our churches have been able to rise to the challenge of evangelism and disciple-making, and those churches are doing reasonably well. But the majority are not.

  2. WendyMay Jacobs avatar
    WendyMay Jacobs

    Thank you

  3. meerkatprofound9c00a3ad7b avatar
    meerkatprofound9c00a3ad7b

    Thank you for this thoughtful piece, Mthr. Arwen. I might have remembered incorrectly, but I have a feeling that it was our late Archbishop, Robert Runcie, who first likened the Church to a swimming pool, with all the noise coming from the shallow end.
    Vanessa Dixon

  4. Steve Croft avatar
    Steve Croft

    Well said. I’m an ex evangelical who despairs of church now. I express faith in ways away from organised church fkr the reason that picking a church with a deep end is a lottery when there is so much depth and beauty without entering a building.

  5. Rev. Brynn Craffey avatar
    Rev. Brynn Craffey

    Wonderful piece! Also brave in the current climate. Thank you!

  6. John Davies avatar
    John Davies

    Many years ago Father Brown spotted that Flambeau was a false priest when the latter attacked ‘reason’, which no true priest would do. I’m not particularly one for ‘tradition’, but reason, scripture and faith certainly should walk hand in hand together. Dispense with any one of them, and a very dangerous path can open up.

    None of us can know all spiritual truth – or indeed all of any truth. To do so implies that it can be limited to fit the capacity of a human mind – and that is very small indeed. However much we think we know, there’s always going to be more, way beyond anything we can grasp, and recognition of that fact is an essential part of ‘walking humbly with our God’

  7. Mike avatar
    Mike

    Great analogy- thanks

  8. Fr Jeremy Sykes avatar
    Fr Jeremy Sykes

    Love this … thank you Mthr…absolutely true to my experience and convictions.

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